I feel like I'm following a script for someone else's life. the problem is, I don't know what my script should look like. I don't really know what sort of thing would suit me better, don't really know who I am.
I think "finding yourself" is complete and utter bullshit. same with "this experience etc. will change you". you can't "find" or "change" yourself. I am what I am, I just can't define it completely, which makes it difficult for me to describe myself or know what I want to do.