I am really fucking sick of working my ass off and getting no results. for almost two years now, I have been watching what I eat, and recently I've been working out every day. for the past four months, I ran 2.5 miles every day, but I had to stop yesterday because my legs hurt so bad. I think I'm getting shin splints or something, and I don't want to fuck up my legs permanently, so....

but I am so sick of working out all the time and thinking about everything I eat and not eating sweets and I got FATTER. I GAINED weight. what the fuck? and it certainly isn't muscle. it is in the form of a belly pooch, jiggly thighs, and ten tons of cellulite in my ass. my clothes are tighter. my stomach sticks out and there are these little fat rolls... fucking repulsive. I just want to be able to wear whatever I want. the whole time I have been at college I have been on an almost vegan diet, ballet twice a week, running every morning, biking every evening, walking tons every day and NOTHING has changed. of course, now I can't run, so I'm completely fucked. what am I going to do?

oh and my HAIR. I have been growing it out since sixth grade and it isn't even waist length yet. what the fucking hell? I want long hair, god fucking damnit. I take such good care of my hair and it STILL doesn't grow. that's why I'm never cutting it! it would never fucking grow back!