hummm, I was rather attached to the Iceland idea. I'm maybe a bit disappointed that I don't have an excuse to throw this all away... not that I ever did? what is wrong with me, I cannot see things the same way I did a day and a half ago, like a complete half switch.... it seems impossible now but why? what changed? can I still...?
another option might be possible, not sure how much yet. it could all fall apart quite easily. I'm beginning to integrate these new ideas into my imagination, but now I'm so attached to the sad and desperate last ditch plans I had and the imaginary world I created from them... it seems quite romantic now.