so, I'm going to take 21 credits next term
I can do it
I will do it!

ok, not one but TWO groups of people that I consider my friends went out and didn't invite me...?
I didn't think I was THAT repulsive

I know I will be so lonely and sad but I can't help hoping
but I am terrified
because once I leave, I cannot come back

what am I doing? I have to get out of here