I need to:

lose weight (I have to lose at least seven pounds. hopefully a little more)

drink more water

take better care of my skin

sleep more (go back to 10:30!)

eat better

spend less time on the computer (need to find some other things to do)...

clean out my closet!

I almost asked J if he wanted to go to prom with me today. We were sitting in the back with a bunch of people after the choir performance, listening to the band. He was asking me why I wasn't going on tour with them (and he seemed so disappointed that I wasn't) and I could have just asked him "hey, do you have any plans for prom?" and asked if he wanted to come with me, and that I could pay for my own ticket and his too, if he wanted (he said earlier that he probably wasn't going to go earlier this year because it was too expensive. I have money! I can pay for everything! but I'm the girl, so it has to be awkward) and I'm about 95% sure that he would say yes. It makes me so happy to see him and talk to him, and I feel so comfortable around him even though I don't know him that well. he always seems genuinely happy to see me too... I wonder if he thinks the same things about me.

If you are reading this, you should comment on this post. Tell me about yourself, or something else, or anything, really. (I know no one will comment on this, but apparently 114 people have looked at my blog... maybe someone will say something?)

so much snow today! it is so warm now, warm enough to bring the big, fluffy kind of snows. spring is definitely on it's way.

I watched that movie, les egares. nothing really happened in it and it was very long, yet I watched the whole thing straight through without distractions, and when it ended, I was surprised. I thought about it all day today. definitely one I need to buy. as is Amelie! I adore that movie.

I'm obsessed with the idea of a personal scent. I want a scent that isn't overwhelming: something you don't notice unless you're very close to me. Something that lingers in my clothing and possessions when I'm not there. I want a fragrance that will instantly bring memories of me to someone's mind. If I was very very rich, I would have a perfume made just for me, so I would be the only person in the world who smelled just like that.

S sat next to me again in third period. (I don't think I've written about him before. he is actually very cute... I really enjoy talking to him) he always says the most adorable things. today he was talking about how excited he was to go to tie kwan do, and teach the little kids. I talked about doing karate, and how I really wanted to learn how to fight. and he said "not to be, sexist, or anything, but I think it's really cool when a girl wants to be able to fight and stuff, you know?"

which made me smile, you know. I mean, it didn't really make sense. just the fact that he would care, no, that he's actually aware that sexism exists and doesn't say something stupid about it, just makes me like him so much more.

I will:
go to coldstone today
make cookies with m&ms in them
make something involving red velvet cake
make a chocolate bunt cake
go buy those shoes
wear high heels more often
marshmallows
order prom dress
plan my trip to korea/china




icky things:
try and find my ring
hopefully find and retype my history paper
finish all my college app paperwork (apply to idaho/ fairbanks, send scores, pay fees)
grandma's petticoats? and shoes from ayla
make appointment to get hair cut