I don't know, I don't know, back to square one I guess. I was so sad today, and then I was happy, I think it was the letting yourself-wallow-in-it-at-rock-bottom thing so then there's nowhere to go but up. but whenever I'm happy I am never completely happy so I always ask myself what's wrong, and then I realize there's tons of things, and I will never be able to relax. I have to find that fucking ring. still!! still!! how the fuck did I lose it? why?why?why? why did grandma have to die when she did anyways, because I really want to talk to her! and I have lots of things to ask her and talk to her about that I never got to, and my family, they have terrible memories, they don't get it, and I really don't want to be responsible for her ring. I HATE LOSING THINGS. MORE THAN JUST ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE IN THE WORLD.
http://canichangethisname.blogspot.com/ this is my old blog. but I gave someone the link to it so it's not private enough anymore so I made this one. but I want them to be linked together.
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