like I realize most of my life is going to be a fucking miserable boring slog. stop telling me to do what I love, I don't love anything. I want to have MONEY because that gets me RESPECT. so that means I need to make SPECIFIC choices now so I can actually get a good job and have a fucking career. I don't give a shit if my job is actually kinda boring. do. not. give. a. fuck. I want a nice place to live, a small dog, and the ability to take care of my parents. that requires money. I'm so fucking tired of prancing around and pretending to care and never getting any damn answers from anyone and instead just getting patronizing bullshit.