So porn is totally ok because you like it, and I am crazy/stupid for pointing out the realities of rape and abuse. no, you haven’t read about that because you “just don’t want to” (and you’ve made it very clear to me that while this is valid reasoning for you to do something, it is not valid reasoning for me to do something, it makes me “childish/stupid/annoying”. When I disagree with you I’m overreacting but when you disagree with me it must mean I am just stupid because you are never, ever wrong about anything). It makes me feel really great that you get off to watching other women being raped and abused, yet not when we have sex. Also it’s completely obvious that you are a porn user. Do you really think most of that actually feels good? You have no idea of all the shit that women do constantly just to protect your feelings.

Two messages and you’re “tired of my shit”.  Ok I should have gotten that already, never ever tease you because you have no sense of humor, take things overly seriously, and always assume the worst (re: crazy stupid girl) out of everything I say.  Everything I say, every feeling I have, can be dismissed with “you’re just jealous/childish/stupid/obviously over emotional”. No valid thoughts here folks! Just an empty head! But you still want to be around me (… I think? It’s hard to tell sometimes) juuust so long as I never say anything negative/ something you don’t like. Limit is like one sentence that is not “yay I’m so happy!” and then you’re “sick of my shit”. Oh and “you’re not responsible for making me feel good” well… no. not exactly. But what do boyfriends or even friends do? Aren’t you supposed to at least try to be, idk, supportive or something instead of making me feel like I shouldn’t ever show any negative emotions or you’ll just say I’m being stupid and annoying? What is the point of being in a relationship then anyway if you are not allowed to talk about anything, and you put no effort into actually trying to connect with/understand the other person, can’t you even try to be nice (like I am nice/supportive/not showing my annoyance with you all the time... you asking "what's wrong" after you've already said something hurtful is not helpful, and I have no interest in explaining my feelings when I know you will only be annoyed)? (feels so great that you can think I am annoying/stupid all the time but if I express any dissatisfaction that is NOT ALLOWED) Why don’t you just buy a sex doll? Apparently that would be the perfect “relationship” for you!

“you don’t put any effort in” I’m sorry, did I say “I deserve to be stupidly rich, not her” or did I just say that I feel a bit depressed/insecure based on the fact that I will never attain that sort of status/success no matter how much “effort” I expend and this is a bit irritating? Besides, I have spoken about this person to you maybe ONCE and yet you continue to use this against me. And, what exactly AM I supposed to do? (ps, how exactly do you know everything I do when I’m not with you…?)  I’m applying for jobs, learning/practicing swedish, and doing my best to go out and meet people and do well in the job I have, what else am I supposed to do? I have NEVER claimed that I “deserve” better or that my situation is anything other than a result of my own choices, this doesn’t mean that I am not allowed to have any negative emotions.