it's so hard not to hate myself
like I should have been: getting fluent in swedish, making friends (especially with those in my courses), making connections (especially with those involved in exchange/ international offices), volunteering, doing internships, being involved in the nations in some way, doing some extracurricular activities, learning some sort of marketable skill...
I haven't done any of that. just thinking about it makes me so. fucking. tired. I'm tired all the time, physically/mentally whatever... I'm never really hungry so I don't eat properly, I apparently suck at socializing because it's just so fucking EXHAUSTING. I work so damn hard and people are just, not interested. fucking humiliating. all these opportunities, wasted, and now all I'm doing is lying around doing nothing and I'm STILL tired all the time. I finished the master's degree, but so what? it doesn't get me shit.