I still miss L so much. We broke up in October, and still…. I just want to hug him again and see his smile again I miss so much his kindness and the way he always made me happy in some way even if he was annoying me… I miss those evenings making dinner together and eating candy and being so happy to have someone feel like home to come back to.

I shouldn’t have broke up with him I should have just told him the truth. But what was the truth? “I’m afraid to meet your family, I feel odd around your friends, you spend too much time playing video games and not enough time studying and I can’t be anxious for your future as well as mine, we can’t be together all the time and there’s no reason to feel bad about that- how should it work anyway? we need to DO more go out more and you need to stop worrying, stop getting so upset, and stop getting annoyed with me for being anxious or bringing up issues I have that you think reflect badly on you, which is maybe why I broke up with you, because I couldn’t take another one of those stupid, awful fights that just ends with a lot of hurt feelings and resentment and no progress….”