you know what, fuck these people. I can't stand being nice anymore. I'm not going to that party, I'll stay here and work on my thesis or art projects or daydream about what I would study if I did a PhD. I just have to be patient for next weekend when I will be seeing lovely people who actually want me around and don't make me feel so fucking small/pathetic/anxious. I only HAVE to see my classmates 4 more times technically so, whatever.