I'm so... mad. really, I wouldn't mind just sleeping with him, but it hasn't even gotten that far. This not-answering-messages thing is just rude. I just don't understand what he is getting out of it, I am bored with the whole thing and I don't want to talk about it, but it STILL makes me fucking ANXIOUS. I'm irritated that I have allowed such a waste of time on nothing. I wish I could just leave and never see these people again.
why am I still so fucking miserable and anxious, I feel better for a while but it is like it's still there, waiting under the surface so I can never relax