I just want to fall in love. I'm a girl... a young woman maybe? aren't I supposed to do that all the time? it's just never happened... maybe I could have loved that last one in some alternate, but now I've given up- I'm not allowing myself the interest because he's such a mess (and it wouldn't work even if he wasn't, so). I need to stop caring about people who don't return the favor/don't need/want/ask...