I feel like a total fake just waiting to be discovered. I'm totally worthless, basically.
why didn't I suck it up and do something practical? (right, because I'm too stupid) my life is completely pointless and I'll never do anything worthwhile or be taken seriously at all.
because (well, I'm female that doesn't help) I can't do any physical stuff and I'm just not YAY FITNESS XTREME OUTDOORS WOO and also I didn't study science so fuck me then (this is what being back in alaska makes me feel...)