I desperately need people around. I know that even if I don't want them, I need to interact with people every day to not be crazy and depressed. nothing keeps me feeling more balanced and together than regularly doing things with "friends" (even if they kind of suck)
but at the same time sometimes I just want to run away from it all. all of these people who have expectations of me (although I'm pretty sure thats mostly in my head) but never return anything. they're just there as a constant source of stress. like I just wanna go somewhere I don't know anyone so I won't have to think about anyone else.