I feel like I'm panicking
I'm not in love with my boyfriend? but actually I have no idea what love feels like and especially because I haven't seen him in a month?
the sort of person I'm looking for doesn't exist and even if they did I probably still would not feel anything for them?

he needs to judge me less
he needs to relax more, about everything (I'm sorry I don't care about every world problem)
and have a better sense of humor, to actually "get" things
he needs to be more secure and sure, I don't want to take care of him, and I don't constantly want to worry about him taking things the wrong way, I don't want to always make all of the decisions
quit being such a victim all the time
no, you doesn't actually understand. and I can't explain it without offending you
how are you always tired (see: quit fucking complaining/ being a victim all the time)