I just want to get this job so I can come back here and stay here, and be doing something I enjoy, and be living in one place for more than 6 months so I can settle in and buy curtains and cooking/baking stuff and some furniture and have lots of craft supplies and a pet and do nail art and have people over for coffee and dumb shit like that
I just wanna take a break from the OMG WHAT NEXT GOALS stuff for a while (and if this works out, which I'm praying to every possible entity that it will bc it would completely make my life, I will come out of my "break from the ratrace/ world" with nice job experience and fluency in a second language)
of course there are like 2384927 things I need to do before I get there
sigh
don't jinx it!!