ugh I want to cry I want to get off of this ride
I like hanging out with him a lot, I like kissing him, I care about him but I think he likes me so much more than I like him.... what was I supposed to say when he told me? not now, maybe later? not now, I'm going to see if the guy I really like likes me back and if not I'll pick you?
this is going way too fast but I can't do anything about it now, and the other knows, oh god he knows now I'm sure EVERYONE does I want to cry (I don't know why this is a bad thing but  it makes me so anxious)
I'm so distracted and I'm such a horrible person I haven't seen my other friends for days now the other teases me a bit I have no motivation to do any school work
but she likes him, that other boy I like so much and I agree with her so much and I can't lie if they got together it would kill me a little inside
but I am such a greedy horrible person why would that other boy like me anyways, and it would be so horrible to hurt the one who likes me, but I don't know I haven't figured out how I feel about this yet but sometimes  he concerns me, he's really not my "type" at all so I don't know what to do with myself but I can't do anything different  I am such a horrible horrible person help I feel sick I don't want to be here anymore I can't do this for another 4 months what is happening