sometimes I'm really happy: so many people have told me "oh, you're so good at swedish already after studying there for a semester you'll be completely fluent"
but then I read things that say it's very easy to become conversationally fluent and then never progress any further
(NeverGoingToLearnThisLanguage/CurrentlyScreamingHopelessly)
I need a fucking JOB there. No, not a job, a CAREER that will pay a whole fucking lot of money I CANNOT have this as a disadvantage. I am talentless/useless enough as it is   (I am an extreme advance planner: I want a nice apartment (preferably where I can have some sort of pet) in the city while I build my career (while being extremely well dressed and eating good food), I want to travel and visit everyone, get my pilot's license, a husband and 2-5 extremely well dressed and behaved children, then a "little red house" in the country with space for a horse(s) as my children grow up, a "mother in law" apartment on my land that my parents can live in and the means to care for them in their old age (and help pay for their vacations to Italy), a summer house by the sea, the ability to maintain a high standard of living and continue being able to travel (with my children), possibly start my own business, or to retire (with horses). I need a whole fucking lot of money to make this happen, and therefore a career, and to get that career I have to speak swedish helt flyttande som en svensk- professionally no accent no accent)
takeaway lesson: I have a max of the next 2.5 years to speak this language COMPLETELY FUCKING PERFECT, FLAWLESSLY, INDISTINGUISHABLE FROM A NATIVE SPEAKER
is that even possible
well it'll have to be