sometimes I just get so exhausted. All of my clothes, all of the things I do to my hair to try and make it not...look like shit, all the things I try to make my skin better, it's all so fucking pointless because even if all of it worked I'd still be fucking ugly
I panic sometimes and put all my hair back and pin it so I can't see it or feel it move because if I didn't I would do something like cut it all off and then stab myself in the face

It's ALL FUCKING POINTLESS why even bother to try, because I'm going to be a fucking failure anyways