it feels like I'm sinking again. into a sticky, dark, sluggish bog filled with nothing but confused thoughts and hopeless feelings with no sense of time or place or beginnings or endings where I am always exhausted and my eyes always hurt and the light is to bright or too dim and I can't focus on anything at all or form a coherent thought to save my life and I just eat aimlessly but I'm never hungry and it's never good and I'm so hopelessly, desperately bored and I never get anything done,  I get no enjoyment out of anything because I'm just so tired and I don't feel anything I feel like I'm walking through a dream where I can't move and can't see and it never ends