I feel old and weird but also hopelessly immature at the same time, doesn't anyone else think about the future? (also, why does anyone have children in their early 20s you just seem incredibly stupid) I think about where I want to be in 10 years because what I do now has a drastic effect. I have never wanted children before but all of a sudden I've made a complete switch, it is so weird. (there is no point thinking about this now, I will not have children for almost 12 years but I feel almost obsessive about it whereas before a couple weeks ago I couldn't care less) like I'm stuck thinking about the far future and am somehow detached from what I'm doing now. (I  have this weird feeling of being tired already, I want to skip everything. skip dating, sex, career, and just go straight to a little red house and a few children. skip babies, just magically have a couple of 5-6 year olds (and lots of money) appear and I will be the best parent ever)