well, I spent less time than I normally do on the computer yesterday and started reading deathless instead. I have not enjoyed a book this much for a very very long time... I feel so much better. I have new plans forming now, I feel like I'm approaching real-life daydreaming very tentatively (I have a tendency to let what can happen in my life mix with my imagination into impossible scenarios) but, new ideas? I need to start saving money now.