ok I feel like I need to lose weight again. I have about 5 months to eat as little as possible before I go abroad. it's easier to eat healthier there, their food is better and more filling. I was so comfortable and content there... 5 months seems like a long time until I go back. (at least it shouldn't be too hard not to eat much as sometimes I feel like there's no food I like here!) I just feel gross. gross gross gross I want to go back to where I was actually ok with myself. it was weird, I went from the worst 3 months for a long time to one of the best months since I was  a child.