saw SB in the dining hall just now when I went to get water. with a group of people, sitting next to a pretty girl (of course) and smiling at her in that sweet way.

what am I doing? hiding in my room reading a book for history. I feel pathetic. I miss having a big group of friends, everyone is so segregated here.

some of my friends here follow me on tumblr. it's horrible! I don't know what to do! tumblr used to be a comfortable, safe place where I could say whatever I wanted and never think about other people but I can't anymore! and I can't block them, and if I make a new blog I'll lose all of the ones I'm following now... ugh ugh ugh I don't know what to do and

i feel like I've lost my safe haven or something....