I've gained even more weight. I feel disgusting. I've been doing pretty well on my diet, and working out every day, but it doesn't seem to help at all. I just keep getting worse. I miss being thin. I miss almost being able to wrap my hands around my waist. I miss how my stomach would sink in when I lay down, how weird it looked because my hipbones stuck out so far. I miss tights not cutting into me at all, I miss never having any bulges or worrying about where my waistband sat. I miss trying on whatever I wanted because it would never be too small. I'm afraid that I will never be that thin again without starving myself, and I will just be gross for the rest of my life. why didn't I pay attention then? I took it for granted, and in such a short time it's gone.