I just like him better than all the others. I think he's just right, exactly how he is. I want him to be happy.

I feel sick, I feel like I'm going to cry, something is clawing at me and it won't let go, no matter what decision I make I think it's the wrong one, time is ticking down all too fast and I only have a few days left until it ends forever. I won't miss it though, right? that last bit of childhood? there will be others like him, right? please tell me there will be, please say there will be others that will make me forget him entirely, that are just as wonderful in their own way.

I adore that boy... and no matter how hard I try to ignore it I think it's clouding my judgement.