Things I should have done:

taken choir from the beginning

taken physics

started planning for college way earlier

tried out for Jazz choir

tried out for the musical

gone on the choir trip

(and I should have gone to F's party today too)

my life would have been so much better.

I'm going to prom with J. I want to be excited, but I'm so awkward. I'm fine with guys who are very shy, or who are more outgoing than me, but J is the exact same type of just-a-little-awkward that I am and that makes it worse somehow. I'm so nervous around him and I have no reason to be... (ohmygodIamsuchafuckingidiotohwhydidInotgoonthechoirtrip?!?!X1000000000)